Unconditional Love.......

     Love comes in different forms at different times of life.. But unconditional luv comes rarely and we never realize uptil the time it has gone far away from us. It’s the same for majority of the living creatures in this universe. May be too much to include the entire universe.. but then again the truth is love knows no bounds.

     Not only myself, hopefully every other person might have witnessed this unconditional luv at some point in life. Beginning with the birth of the child until his/her death, he/she witnesses many forms of luv and sometimes gets lucky to have such a kind of unconditional luv, may be through friends, relatives or the spl someone.

     Wondering what my definition of unconditional luv includes – ohh nothng gr8.. “Give anything under the sun to that special friend, special ppl or special someone in your life without any expectations of any kind in return...” To put it down in words or preach the same is too easy but to practice in reality is too difficult. Inspite of the fact that I got ample amount of unconditional luv at different points in my life, frankly speaking never ever could practice the same to the fullest... except for may be some times which outnumbers the time ppl have done the same to me :))

     Once someone had imbibed into my mind – “If someone offers u a seat beside u there may be some selfish motive behind that”. Still to this day I sometimes keep getting confused between the truth and blunt truth I have faced in my short life uptil now. Sometimes I get disappointed when I don’t get the expected care and attention from the ppl whom I respect and crave for a lot.. and least expectedly I always just turn my bak to the ppl who unconditionally, everytime bestow so much of luv and affection on me.. is it some selfish motive acting behind their grateful act or is it again unconditional luv.. but after having witnessed so many ups and downs I can finally differentiate between unconditional luv and selfishness..

     I used to be a very selfish creature during my school days uptil 2nd yr engg. My classmates and collegemates used to get irritated by my very nature.. “So many mood swings and alongwith that selfishness.. god knows how this girlie survives” -- used to be their consistent thought with every passing moment in life.But one thing for sure is they still helped me whenever I required.. can’t that be considered a gr8 example of unconditional love :)) They were, are and will be always my sweet and close frnds for all they have done in tolerating a stone-hearted person like me :DDDD

     When it comes to me, to give the same I hesitate.. thnking why should I give a person who will never ever return me bak the same.. But I have been so wrong. And for this change in thought of mine there are some special ppl. They have influenced my ideas greatly. One of thm has to be my Big B and parents whose unconditional luv has and will always be above all of them and is incomparable.

     The others are the special ppl I came across my lifetime. My intimate friend Tyagi is a live example of the same.. He has always given me and seen to it that I get all happiness of life.. without even expecting a simple “hi” or “smile” from me in return. Initially I used to thnk was it his selfishness to get my frndship. But gradually understood thats what I can describe my sweet friend in one line as “Giver of unconditional luv”. He has been the same to any other person, no doubt have been somewhat partial to me. But yup there are others also who taught me the same thing in b’bay through b’lore and pretty much on orkut and I can’t mention all of their names, the very reason being that every other person whom I met through orkut and became close to can be categorized in the above category :)))) Thnx to all my online and offline buddies for having given my life the beauty of this unconditional luv… Once again being selfish in quoting – “Hope to get this unconditional luv all through my life”...

     Can’t help mentioning abt the origin of this thought and consequent post on the topic of “Unconditional Love”.. Got inspired by a telugu movie “Arya” based on the same theme… and see how I penned down such a long post………… Thts the charm of “Unconditional Love”....

A long wait....

     S stood there in front of girls hostel, waiting for Iris, every morning. S was never impunctual in any of his deeds nor was Iris.. But what was making Iris take unsually such a long time today.. making it a long wait for S. 10 mins passed and within this time S weaved all sorts of weird thoughts of her getting late. He re-thought was it his craze that made him forget it to be another weekend. But no, it wasn’t,it was just Tuesday.. Neither the day nor the time of 9:00 am in the morning was a culprit.. something somewhere was wrong…

     Another 15 mins passed with S never realizing the fact that he was already 20 mins late for the most awaited campus interview of his life. But then again as people say love is blind. But I disagree… wasn’t it true that he wished only to see wht was the demand of tht moment. All the more coz S was totally blindfolded by Iris’s love and same was the case with Iris. Finally after a long wait Iris appeared somewhere behind the security at the entrance of the girls hostel..

     It was the most awaited moment for S and it was totally visible in every expression that took shape on S’s face… Iris walked out of the gate and confronted S who was as ever with the same charming smile on his face even without a single drop of complain. But S found the full absence of that mesmerizing and charming smile, usually well – knit on Iris’s face. The long wait never even slightly had an impact on S.. but now the killing thing was the very presence of Iris’s blank face.. what, when and how went wrong and that too within few hrs of night time (where they weren’t 2gether)...

     Finally after a long pause as usual S took the initiative to wish her a sweet "good morning" and it didn’t take long for Iris to get a small curve of artificial smile on her face… Without uttering even a single word Iris started walking with S on her side, to cover the distance from her hostel to their dept… Both of them felt the distance never ending with the killing silence having engulfed both of them. Finally S took the initiative and asked "Whats the matter??"...Iris ended every chance of further questioning with a simple answer "S I m finally leaving..."

     S was totally blank to pose any other question…what was wrong on his part for her to have taken such a decision… And finally a retrace back made him understand many a things… And his only next question was "where????". The answer Iris gave drained him of all the pleasures in life that he had already dreamt of, for the next 7 births. She had not only decided to leave the place but also S… what was the reason never anyone knew except for S and Iris, which Iris finally shared on their last date at their favorite spot and that too that very night at 12:00 (what a time and location)…

     The only thing that remains today is the long distance separating S and Iris... and more to it Iris is getting married shortly.... S and Iris are still madly in love but the name for that love has changed... hope in next birth they get united without the insane reason that separated them out in this birth.....

The Indian Silicon Valley Experience!!!!

     29th Jan 2005 – This day is something special apart from the fact tht we had a grand paratha party!! Ohh what is it now, any wild guesses..hmmmmmmmmmmmmm… I don’t thnk ppl can guess it.. coz neither me a celebrity nor some famous person for ppl to keep track of my life calendar :DDDDD

     This very day a year back I landed on the very own soil of b’lore. My dad had accompanied me and had even stayed here for a week.. coz he knw I came down here against my wishes and wanted to be sure tht his very sweet and obedient (being sarcastic :DDD) daughter doesn’t vanish in btwn the trip from b’bay to b’lore. But one thing I m quiet sure in my life is I can go against anyone’s wishes but not against my dad’s :)))

     The first 5 months in b’lore were the horrible ones with all my frnds, funs and njoyments left miles away in b’bay and baroda. I always felt the zest to quit the job and get bak to that funfilled life in b’bay but thn again a simple re-thought used to prove all my decisions totally wrong. Ppl in my PG were really sweethearts in the sense that they made my life wonderful with each passing day and kept on advising me to live in present rather than brooding over what I left behind :)) Spl thanx to kosha, kavya and Kaajal who incidentally were my roomies then!!! :))

     The first few months at my work place was also not a gr8 relief. For the first time I faced hell lot of professionalism that scared me to death. Being an easy go kinda gal I never ever was introduced to such professionalism. Always any sort of interaction with any of my colleagues was limited only uptil the work. Even during coffee brks it used to be work that used to get all the attention. I couldn’t find even a single deviation to any other topic other than work. Yucckssssssssss I used to hate work then sooooooooo muchhhhhhhh :((((((

     But within 3 months time I found relief in some of my colleagues who shared the same interests as mine and it didn’t take long for me to get whole of my Team to be of the same type as mine. But ya one thing I always had fun here was whnever u have work work to the fullest and even if free for 30 secs utitlize it to the fullest for tps :DDDDD Thats how my professional life once again got filled up with the colors of my choice and it became all the more colorful!! :))

     One major thing that hapened in 1 yrs time is I got introduced to so many unknown ppl and faces through our very own ORKUT . Although I had got orkut invitations n number of times b4 I never ever felt the need to join it But consistent pestering frm kosha forced me to join the same and I thank her a lot for her efforts. Was particularly lucky to have got so many of them online but now some of them have become good frnds and one of them is a very good frnd of mine :)). Now if we organize a meet it would be a frndly weekend meet rather than being called an orkut or TLTE meet!! :)) But one thng common to all of these orkuttians whom I have met is that they are really very sweet natured ppl who can go to any levels in helping!! Expecting to meet the rest in the coming years!! :))

     Last Sunday I never ever mentioned, even once about this to any one present at the paratha party, but thnx to all my buddies present there for making my 1st anniversary in the silicon valley of India a memorable one :)) Now a very funny thng I keep brooding over is as to which would be my next destination once out of b’lore and most probably it has to be a place beginning with B. Coz firstly it was Baroda which ultimately got renamed to Vadodara, then B’bay which got renamed to Mumbai and now B’lore which got renamed to Bengaluru recently. Whew witnessed so many rename operations outside s/w life also :DDD So the only thng I keep on doing these days is list out all the places beginning with ‘B’, which has max possibility of getting renamed :DDDD

Conclusion : One thing I can say about the silicon valley of India is, it is a wonderful place, totally overcrowded with ppl and all the more with vehicles :DD Considered to be the heaven for s/w professionals, life spent here is truly a lifetime xperience in itself :))) I am thankful to b’lore for having given me a chance to taste the various spices of life!!!